I have been posting saying that I will write more of my story. When I was talking to my hubby about how I don't know what to post about. In the conversation with my hubby he said you write when you are in pain and this is how you deal with grieving. I can say that is true whenever something big happens to me I either sleep so that I can't remember the details or I write every little thing that I can think of down. I prefer the second choice I would rather be able to write and share my memories than just bury them and forget about them.
I have been thinking about what stories I would like to share about my daughter. I have racked my brain over over and over again but I can't think of anything. I have shared so many memories about my daughter and our story. All the other stories I could tell are personal to my hubby and me.
I'm going to be writing more and more about my daily living and how I am starting to live again. My days have turned into looking for something I can have joy about and not pity me party. Even though I am having hard times falling asleep and than getting out of bed. Some days I just think I will stay in bed and not get out. After a couple of minutes of petting our cat I get out of bed. I feel like if I stay in bed I'm letting my daughter down I know that she wants me to live and enjoy life.