XOXO LOVE YOU TONS HAPPY BIRTHDAY COUSIN!!!
It's been awhile.....
6 years ago
Monday, February 28, 2011
Day to Celebrate
My daughter was a STILL BORN on August 23, 2010 and on August 25, 2010 I lost a cousin to cancer. I loved my cousin so much she lived in England when I lived in America. When I was 4 I think she came over to America to visit our family. I remember her singing the sound of music and twirling on the mountains that I see everyday. I got to go visit her when I was 17 in England I got to meet her three beautiful boys. I got to spend time with her and see her strength shine through a very hard time. Her sister told me about the time that they curled her hair. My cousin had this gorgeous red hair and her sister said that after curling her hair she looked like the lion off of Wizard of Oz. If I'm not mistaken the lion wanted courage. My cousin did have so much courage she was amazing I love her so much. She had the greatest laugh and the biggest smile. Today is her Birthday so I'm wishing her a HAPPY BIRTHDAY and hoping that my grandma J, grandpa B, my daughter L and my cousin and all my other family members are celebrating by having a big birthday party. So if I see any sparkles anywhere today I know where they will be coming from.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
Quote of the day
Nick: Here's a thought. Why don't we get an egg and start our own chicken farm? That way we'd have all the eggs we could eat.
Fetcher: Right. We'll need a chicken, then.
Nick: No... no, we'll need an egg. You have the egg first, that's where you get the chicken from.
Fetcher: No, that's cobblers. If you don't have a chicken, where are you going to get the egg?
Nick: From the chicken that comes from the egg.
Fetcher: Yeah, but you have to have an egg to have a chicken.
Nick: Yeah, but you've got to get the chicken first to get the egg, and then you get the egg... to get the chicken out of...
Fetcher: Hang on, let's go over this again.
Fetcher: Right. We'll need a chicken, then.
Nick: No... no, we'll need an egg. You have the egg first, that's where you get the chicken from.
Fetcher: No, that's cobblers. If you don't have a chicken, where are you going to get the egg?
Nick: From the chicken that comes from the egg.
Fetcher: Yeah, but you have to have an egg to have a chicken.
Nick: Yeah, but you've got to get the chicken first to get the egg, and then you get the egg... to get the chicken out of...
Fetcher: Hang on, let's go over this again.
-Chicken Run
I thought I would share a laugh today... I hope everyone has a great day.
Saturday, February 26, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
something new
I don't know what to call this blog yet??? So I'm just going to begin typing and see where my fingers take me. I'm feeling inspired a month over due... ha ha. I really wanted to do this last month but life happens and so with life I couldn't really hang out on my blog for the time to get one typed in...
So my inspiration comes from a fellow blogger A Spoonful Of Sugar this fellow blogger the month of January did a post a day about what she was grateful for. I loved going and checking her blog everyday to see what she was grateful for. It helped me see that I have so much to grateful for also. I'm going to make the month of March my gratitude month. Everyday I'm going to post about something I'm grateful for that day. I hope that this fellow blogger doesn't mind that I'm taking her idea.
I just have to say this is the time of the month that I become a little reclusive to my hubby and my family and friends... I even become a little bit of a brat. I don't mean to. I go into my little hole because this is the hardest week of a month. This is the time that I think my little girl would be so old. But instead this is the time that I come down on myself and wish that I had my little baby with me and life is totally unfair. So if I have hurt anyone's feelings this last week or offended anyone it is because I'm just in pain and mourning for the loss of my little angel. I know that it has been a couple of months now and I should be doing better. I am I promise you that I am. It is just that I see so many things about babies everywhere and I just wish that my little girl was here so that I could make a cute blog about my baby and not have to write my tale of mourning. I feel like some people have just forgotten that I have gone through a major loss in my life and that I should be moved on and not care that a mommy of 23 had to put her little girl to rest in a cemetery and not bring her home to be with her...
So my inspiration comes from a fellow blogger A Spoonful Of Sugar this fellow blogger the month of January did a post a day about what she was grateful for. I loved going and checking her blog everyday to see what she was grateful for. It helped me see that I have so much to grateful for also. I'm going to make the month of March my gratitude month. Everyday I'm going to post about something I'm grateful for that day. I hope that this fellow blogger doesn't mind that I'm taking her idea.
I just have to say this is the time of the month that I become a little reclusive to my hubby and my family and friends... I even become a little bit of a brat. I don't mean to. I go into my little hole because this is the hardest week of a month. This is the time that I think my little girl would be so old. But instead this is the time that I come down on myself and wish that I had my little baby with me and life is totally unfair. So if I have hurt anyone's feelings this last week or offended anyone it is because I'm just in pain and mourning for the loss of my little angel. I know that it has been a couple of months now and I should be doing better. I am I promise you that I am. It is just that I see so many things about babies everywhere and I just wish that my little girl was here so that I could make a cute blog about my baby and not have to write my tale of mourning. I feel like some people have just forgotten that I have gone through a major loss in my life and that I should be moved on and not care that a mommy of 23 had to put her little girl to rest in a cemetery and not bring her home to be with her...
Wednesday, February 23, 2011
Quote of the day
"There are those among you who, although young,
have already suffered a full measure of grief and sorrow.
My heart is filled with compassion and love for you.
How dear you are to the Church. How beloved you are of your Heavenly Father.
Though it may seem that you are alone, angels attend you.
Though you may feel that no one can understand the depth of your despair, our Savior, Jesus Christ, understands. He suffered more than we can possibly imagine, and He did it for us;
He did it for you. You are not alone."
This is a story that amazes me
This woman who is the same age amazes me. I started reading about her and following her a couple of months ago. Her story is a very sad story but her strength amazes me. I started reading her blog thinking this person amazes me. I see my color guard instructors post on Facebook about this blog because this girl was one of her many color guard girls and how the high school I went to is going to be doing a special get together for her family and friends. I was in shock I knew she looked familiar so I commented on my instructors post and told her that I had been following this blog. I got the comment you know her she was the girl who started with you and had to quit guard because that is when they found her first tumor. I have a bad bad memory. I started to think about it and yes I do remember her she was fun to be around.
All I can say is I hope you go read her blog and see how her strength is amazing. I would have to say she is one of my many hero's.
"There are those among you who, although young,
have already suffered a full measure of grief and sorrow.
My heart is filled with compassion and love for you.
How dear you are to the Church. How beloved you are of your Heavenly Father.
Though it may seem that you are alone, angels attend you.
Though you may feel that no one can understand the depth of your despair, our Savior, Jesus Christ, understands. He suffered more than we can possibly imagine, and He did it for us;
He did it for you. You are not alone."
He promised me
He promised me that this ring is just because he wants to see me happy. Over the next 3 months before B left on his LDS mission I would ask him all sorts of questions about the ring why he loved me and such...
Questions about the ring...
J: What if I find another guy and he makes me happy and decide to get married would it break your heart?
B: No, not if you are happy, that is all I want for you is to be happy and if your happy with this "other" guy than I would be happy for you.
J: What does this ring really mean?
B: Just what I told you when I gave it to you I want you to be happy... So if you do find someone else you want to marry and he makes you happy than I will be happy for you. J this is a ring that I'm giving to you so that you remember to be happy.
J: So not a promise ring for marriage???
B: If we happen to get married than we will.
Question about his love for me:
J: Why do you love me?
B: It's something that I can't express in words... it's the overwhelming sense of comfort and peace when I'm with you and my stomach turns every time I see your beauty...
J: I love you so much I hope that we will get married.
Those are just some of the things I would ask him and than write down I was girl who was going to be saying goodbye to her boyfriend for two years I needed to know his love for me that way if I did wait for him I had a reason to tell everyone why I was waiting.
B had left to go on his mission so began the longest two years of my life... my mom says that it had flown by. I don't believe her. I started a new job right before B left. Half of my friends wouldn't talk to me once B left. I felt like I had to start all over again with life. I met one of my many best friends and she was the friend that just got to hear some stories but hanging out with her my life didn't revolve around missing B as much. I moved back in with my parents I had a good two years. I didn't date anyone... I stayed faithful I was so in love with B we dated for 7 months before his mission but I was head over heels in love with him.
B came back from his mission and the first night back he had given me a soft little kiss. I was shocked. My friends and I were making guesses to how long it would be until he would kiss me and be comfortable around me again a girl. My guess was three weeks. Well it only took three weeks back after his mission to ask my dad and mom for permission to marry their youngest daughter me. I guessed how long it would be until we started talking about marriage not how long it would be until he kissed me. B proposed to me with a ring pop because the ring that he got me he couldn't hide it in his cute little treat basket. Ring pops have become on of our little favorite treats to get for each other we don't get them that much either so they still have their special magic in them. We got married in May 2008 and we are still so much in love since those August nights in 2005.
Questions about the ring...
J: What if I find another guy and he makes me happy and decide to get married would it break your heart?
B: No, not if you are happy, that is all I want for you is to be happy and if your happy with this "other" guy than I would be happy for you.
J: What does this ring really mean?
B: Just what I told you when I gave it to you I want you to be happy... So if you do find someone else you want to marry and he makes you happy than I will be happy for you. J this is a ring that I'm giving to you so that you remember to be happy.
J: So not a promise ring for marriage???
B: If we happen to get married than we will.
Question about his love for me:
J: Why do you love me?
B: It's something that I can't express in words... it's the overwhelming sense of comfort and peace when I'm with you and my stomach turns every time I see your beauty...
J: I love you so much I hope that we will get married.
Those are just some of the things I would ask him and than write down I was girl who was going to be saying goodbye to her boyfriend for two years I needed to know his love for me that way if I did wait for him I had a reason to tell everyone why I was waiting.
B had left to go on his mission so began the longest two years of my life... my mom says that it had flown by. I don't believe her. I started a new job right before B left. Half of my friends wouldn't talk to me once B left. I felt like I had to start all over again with life. I met one of my many best friends and she was the friend that just got to hear some stories but hanging out with her my life didn't revolve around missing B as much. I moved back in with my parents I had a good two years. I didn't date anyone... I stayed faithful I was so in love with B we dated for 7 months before his mission but I was head over heels in love with him.
B came back from his mission and the first night back he had given me a soft little kiss. I was shocked. My friends and I were making guesses to how long it would be until he would kiss me and be comfortable around me again a girl. My guess was three weeks. Well it only took three weeks back after his mission to ask my dad and mom for permission to marry their youngest daughter me. I guessed how long it would be until we started talking about marriage not how long it would be until he kissed me. B proposed to me with a ring pop because the ring that he got me he couldn't hide it in his cute little treat basket. Ring pops have become on of our little favorite treats to get for each other we don't get them that much either so they still have their special magic in them. We got married in May 2008 and we are still so much in love since those August nights in 2005.
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