This is a story that amazes me

FOR LINDSEY

    This woman who is the same age amazes me.  I started reading about her and following her a couple of months ago.  Her story is a very sad story but her strength amazes me.  I started reading her blog thinking this person amazes me.  I see my color guard instructors post on Facebook about this blog because this girl was one of her many color guard girls and how the high school I went to is going to be doing a special get together for her family and friends.  I was in shock I knew she looked familiar so I commented on my instructors post and told her that I had been following this blog.  I got the comment you know her she was the girl who started with you and had to quit guard because that is when they found her first tumor.  I have a bad bad memory.  I started to think about it and yes I do remember her she was fun to be around.

All I can say is I hope you go read her blog and see how her strength is amazing.  I would have to say she is one of my many hero's. 

"There are those among you who, although young,

have already suffered a full measure of grief and sorrow.

My heart is filled with compassion and love for you.

How dear you are to the Church. How beloved you are of your Heavenly Father.

Though it may seem that you are alone, angels attend you.

Though you may feel that no one can understand the depth of your despair, our Savior, Jesus Christ, understands. He suffered more than we can possibly imagine, and He did it for us;

He did it for you. You are not alone." 

Dieter F. Uchtdorf

He promised me

He promised me that this ring is just because he wants to see me happy.  Over the next 3 months before B left on his LDS mission I would ask him all sorts of questions about the ring why he loved me and such...

Questions about the ring... 
J: What if I find another guy and he makes me happy and decide to get married would it break your heart?
B: No, not if you are happy, that is all I want for you is to be happy and if your happy with this "other" guy than I would be happy for you.

J: What does this ring really mean?
B: Just what I told you when I gave it to you I want you to be happy...  So if you do find someone else you want to marry and he makes you happy than I will be happy for you.  J this is a ring that I'm giving to you so that you remember to be happy.
J: So not a promise ring for marriage???
B: If we happen to get married than we will.

Question about his love for me:
 J: Why do you love me?
B: It's something that I can't express in words... it's the overwhelming sense of comfort and peace when I'm with you and my stomach turns every time I see your beauty...
J: I love you so much I hope that we will get married.

Those are just some of the things I would ask him and than write down I was girl who was going to be saying goodbye to her boyfriend for two years I needed to know his love for me that way if I did wait for him I had a reason to tell everyone why I was waiting.

B had left to go on his mission so began the longest two years of my life... my mom says that it had flown by.  I don't believe her.  I started a new job right before B left.  Half of my friends wouldn't talk to me once B left.  I felt like I had to start all over again with life.  I met one of my many best friends and she was the friend that just got to hear some stories but hanging out with her my life didn't revolve around missing B as much.  I moved back in with my parents I had a good two years.  I didn't date anyone... I stayed faithful I was so in love with B we dated for 7 months before his mission but I was head over heels in love with him.

B came back from his mission and the first night back he had given me a soft little kiss.  I was shocked.  My friends and I were making guesses to how long it would be until he would kiss me and be comfortable around me again a girl.  My guess was three weeks.  Well it only took three weeks back after his mission to ask my dad and mom for permission to marry their youngest daughter me.  I guessed how long it would be until we started talking about marriage not how long it would be until he kissed me.  B proposed to me with a ring pop because the ring that he got me he couldn't hide it in his cute little treat basket.  Ring pops have become on of our little favorite treats to get for each other we don't get them that much either so they still have their special magic in them.  We got married in May 2008 and we are still so much in love since those August nights in 2005.

The beginning of Our Story

(I have been thinking that I should share the love story of hubby and I)

August 15,2005

   So I met someone last week and he is gorgeous.  He has beautiful blue eyes and nice red hair.   ...

This is the beginning of our whirlwind romance we met at work.  I trained him at the job the first day he worked there.  I was so nervous that day because my friend had set me up on a blind date because she really didn't know the guy she was going on a date with and wanted a friend there just to be a backup.  I had a trust issue with boys in high school so I only went on one date in high school.  I was just telling B that I was so nervous and I really didn't know if I should go.  B piped in and said he would go.  I thought he was joking this guy had just barely met me and he said that he would go with.  I thought nothing of it.  Than after work when I went to meet up with my blind date I saw my date and he was much older than me I was only 18 and he only had one tooth and looked like a hill billy.  That is when I started scanning the parking lot hoping that this B guy was for real and he was going to be there.  As I was walking to meet up with my friend and the men I saw B get out of his vehicle.  I was so happy to see him.  I did a mean thing but I was to young for my date.  I ignored the whole entire group besides B.  B had captured my attention and I was getting twitter-patted with him.  I went home that night in a daze I really had liked B but I didn't really know how to act all girlie to keep a boy liking me.  I had apparently made quite the impression on B because the next night we went to a store after work and talked to each other until 2am.  Quickly we fell head over heels in love.  A few short months later B had received his LDS mission call.  I got a promise ring before he got his mission call.  But instead of the promise to wait for him.  When he gave me the ring this is what he promised me.

Quote of the day and a challenge

“We can begin to become more diligent and concerned

at home by telling the people

we love that we love them.

Such expressions do not need

to be flowery or lengthy.

We simply should sincerely and frequently express love.” 

David A. Bednar

        This is my favorite advice that I love to tell all the newlyweds that I go see in line at their reception on their wedding day.  They need to remember to say I Love You daily to their spouse and make it a habit.  My hubby and I say it everyday.

Challenge for today tell everyone that lives in your home how much you love them and show it!

Laughter the Best kind of Medicine

"The most wasted day of all is that in which we have not laughed."
  Sabastein-Roch Nicolas Chamfort - Quote Book

    Today is going to be a wonderful day!  We are inviting hubby's side of the family over to see our new place and to have lunch together.  I'm so happy that we were able to get all moved in before Monday.  We are so grateful to my sister and her husband for letting us borrow their truck so that we could move over our weekend and on Saturday only have the furniture to move and the couple of boxes that were to heavy to carry ourselves.  We are so grateful for the ward and all their help moving it is so nice when we have the Elders Quorum helping out.  So hubby and I have been busy unpacking since last Tuesday and we are completely done.  We even have the apartment decorated.  Making it feel like home.  I'm happy to say that we were able to keep some things out that were in our Daughters room and it is just such a good reminder.  Even though that we moved she is still with us watching over us.  Our little kitty cat has come to love this new place also (I think it is because there are a lot more hiding places for him this time).  I just have to say this new place of ours has brought lots of happiness and laughter into our lives.

So the challenge for the day is to look around and see what brings laughter and smiles into your life!!!

(and for the Americans Happy Presidents Day!!!) 

I'm Back

I'm back and with that I have a lot of things to catch you up on...

We moved!  Yay! We are pretty much unpacked for the most part... we may to hang up the clean laundry and put some other little random things away and than we are pretty much done.  I'm happy/sad about our move.  I'm happy because I love how big our new apartment is and I'm sad because I had to leave the apartment behind that I was going to be a mommy in.  I had to leave behind the nursery.  That day was kind of a hard day.  I put it off as much as possible.  I packed everything else I didn't want to take down everything I made for my daughter.  I took an hour or so just to be able to remember everything and put away all the beautiful outfits that she had received from her family and our friends.  I was surprised to see how much things we had for her and how that baby clothes are so tiny that it only took a big bin to put them all in.  But the drawers are still full of baby things.  There are some small things that I couldn't pack up and so I put them in a little basket and are going to be out where I can see them.  I think this move will be kind of better for me to be able to help me carry on my life and not have a daily reminder about the room not being a baby room...
With this move my husband gets a man cave.  He is so excited about that he gets the love seat in the second bedroom along with his little TV that he plays games in.  We compromised with not having extra sitting so that we could go to IKEA and get a bookcase and a desk that attaches to it.  This was a good compromise.  I'm in love having a place to work on all my new projects.  I also love that we have a place to sit and work me on my blog just to think and not have any distractions.  Well maybe one our cat.  I have a companion animal for my emotional disability (depression) there I said it.  Plus our cat is more than welcome to live here.  So here is to a new home and to new memories.

In the hassle of moving Valentines Day came.  My husband and I just did a little gift exchange.  Yes, I believe that this holiday is also a day to show not just the wife how much you love them but how much you love your husband.  I also believe that this is a day to show your family how much you love them.  So I made my husband a little gift basket full of red hots and other little random candies that had to all do with things that were HOT this was the theme of my basket and I found this idea here... The basket was to show that OUR LOVE IS RED HOT.  I loved the idea I went to the dollar store to get all the treats and the basket.  I also got ring pops for my hubby because that is how he proposed to me.  My hubby got me a teddy bear and hoops & yoyo card I love those cards.  We also went out to dinner just to be able sit down and not worry about having to look at our apartment full of mess.  Here is the V-days love quote that I wanted to post but because I got busy I forgot.

"True love is not so much a matter of romance as it is a matter of anxious concern for the well being of ones companion."  

Gordon B. Hinckley

a small update...

So my hubby and I are moving this week so hopefully next week I can start the blog back up...

I just wanted to share somethings that I have been working on not really no one wants to read and see pictures of cardboard boxes.  My life is basically all packed up.  We get the keys to our new place on Tuesday and I'm so EXCITED!!! (thank you to my best friend J and her mom we got the apartment... small world the landlord and her mom are best friends and they told us that is why we got the apartment)  

I have been taking pictures of the nursery that we made for our daughter.  It is the last room to be packed and I just want to sit in there and remember everything that I did for her.

Well I'm going to leave you with a story about the little toe...

My family all the girls have this toe...  It is the pinky toe and so much smaller than the rest of them and it tucks behind the other toes.  This is the only thing that I wanted this little girl to have is this toe.  It is a special toe it connects all the girls in our family.  I prayed and prayed for this toe.  After I quickly named her before she was in my arms my husband says...  "She has the Toe" my heart melt.  I got my little girl and the toe.  I asked for pictures of this toe.  The photographer lifted the toe and put it on the other toe so that we could see it.  I liked the picture but it didn't really show off how the toe is suppose to look like.  So today while I was in the nursery taking pictures I did it.  I grabbed the moldings of her feet and started taking pictures.